What Is And What Should Never Be

I guess I spoke too soon...silly silly me

Mr.E has been seeing the hot sexy neighbor during the days he wasn't in contact with me. They've gone to the movies. So I guess I'm the girl he uses for sex while hanging out with the neighbor doing "couple-stuff"...

He hasn't promised me anything, and I've told him I don't want to get serious...But I feel really hurt. And I'm thinking, why doesn't he take me to the movies?

I've just IM'd him. Asked him to think about the consequenses of us going too far. I mean he came over tonight to watch a movie and we're holding hands, cuddling, doing a bit of flirting.... I told him that we're in the same group of friends, and if it goes too far, if it gets too much, we still have to hang out, and what if it gets too much...

It's really hard. We're talking right now about what if we wouldn't see each other again. But he said that he'd miss me too much, and that if he'd move (he's thinking about travelling) the only person he'd really miss is me.

God, I don't know... What have we done? So we both have feelings for each other. He told me that he's only hanging out with his neighbor as friends, and I told him that it's really not about her, but us. And if he wants to get down and dirty with someone, maybe it shouldn't be with me anymore. Whatever feelings we have for each other will make things too complicated in the end.

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It's done. We're not seeing each other anymore. I'm taking him off my IM-list. No more Mr.E. No more sweet romantic notions. He's sad, and so am I. But I can't switch it off just like that. I've started having stronger feelings for him. Short but sweet, eh, guys? It never even started....

I hope he misses me and I hope he won't be able to be without me. But I know him, he's a guy, and guys switch on and off in a blink of an eye. I sometimes wish I lived in a romantic drama, because in the end the girl always ends up with the guy... Too bad that's not the case, eh?