Truth Doesn't Make A Noise

Haven't heard from Mr.E since we went to see him over a coffee. Guess that means I'm dumped, even though dumped really isn't the right word for it. We never started anything in the first place, I mean not really, so how can I be dumped? But thing is, I feel dumped.

Luckily I'm going out tomorrow night with my friends, I need some cheering up... How come it feels so empty even though nothing ever really happened? Why do I feel like such an idiot? Such a girl? Such a teenage girl? (Sorry if I offend anyone. Maybe I should be more specific.) I feel like I did when I was a teenaged girl... Like I did when I was a teen idiot who fell for who ever looked me in the eye and smiled at me... (God how pathetic do I sound?)

I know he's working really really hard doing his computer sciency thing, but hey...an IM? Not alot to ask for. And now I feel I can't just IM him, because I don't want to seem like I'm stalking him... I bet it's his neighbor. Or someone else. I need to get him Out Of My Head! A.s.a.p. Not good, not good at all!