Weak

I wish these days feeling this shit could just fly by and I'll feel happy again. I just can't stand feeling sad. It's absolutely awful, I hate it. Being soppy is not my thing, and still I'm sitting here...being soppy...

And on top of that I've contacted Mr.E! Not even by mistake. I thought I'd deleted all his numbers and addresses, but I'd forgotten that he'd sent me an e-mail a week ago. I hadn't deleted that. Very bad!

See, the thing with me is, I'm not deleting numbers so to get rid of him per se. I'm deleting numbers and addresses so I won't contact him. And look what happens?!?! God, I can't even stop myself. Not that I left a really tearjerking message. I told him I consider myself somewhat in the right to be angry with him, and that one day we'll probably be on proper speaking terms again, but that I just need time to be angry because he's been such a (at a loss for words....) d*ckweed...

But, I also told him that I miss speaking to him and that that is what saddens me about all this. Losing a friend.

Hedonism (Just Because You Feel Good)

I hope You're feeling happy now
I see You feel no pain at all it seems
I wonder what You're doing now
I wonder if You think of me at all
Do You still play the same moves now?
Or are those special moods for someone else?
I hope You're feeling happy now

Just because You feel good
Doesn't make You right
Just because You feel good
Still want You here tonight

Does laughter still discover You?
I see through all those smiles that look so right
Do You still have the same friends now
To smoke away Your problems and Your life?
How do You remember me?
The one who made You laugh until You cried?
I hope You're feeling happy now

Just because You feel good
Doesn't make You right
Just because You feel good
Still want You here tonight
Want You

I wonder what You're doing now
I hope You're feeling happy now

Skunk Anansie