I Will Dare

I've told him how I feel. Not to his face, didn't get the nerve until it was too late. His friend is here now, his "friend", from Germany... They're in his parents cabin in the woods somewhere close to the Norweigan border. And the jealousy is slowly eating me up alive.

He sent me a text yesterday morning saying he misses me and that he was bored with work ( they drove to the cabin last night) and I sent him a text saying that I would like 3 reasons with at least 1 of them better than he's bored at work why he misses me. He sent me one back last night saying that a text message wouldn't be able to contain all the reasons that he misses me....

It made me so angry! Then what the hell is he doing with her?!?!? If that's how he feels he should tell her about me, let us meet and show me that it's me, that I'm the one he wants not her. I called him this morning. He sounded surprised but in a good way... and I wanted to tell him that I like him, that I'm in love with him, that I want us together as a couple and not just as friends, but I choked.

10 minutes later I sent him a text saying all those things....