Weak

I wish these days feeling this shit could just fly by and I'll feel happy again. I just can't stand feeling sad. It's absolutely awful, I hate it. Being soppy is not my thing, and still I'm sitting here...being soppy...

And on top of that I've contacted Mr.E! Not even by mistake. I thought I'd deleted all his numbers and addresses, but I'd forgotten that he'd sent me an e-mail a week ago. I hadn't deleted that. Very bad!

See, the thing with me is, I'm not deleting numbers so to get rid of him per se. I'm deleting numbers and addresses so I won't contact him. And look what happens?!?! God, I can't even stop myself. Not that I left a really tearjerking message. I told him I consider myself somewhat in the right to be angry with him, and that one day we'll probably be on proper speaking terms again, but that I just need time to be angry because he's been such a (at a loss for words....) d*ckweed...

But, I also told him that I miss speaking to him and that that is what saddens me about all this. Losing a friend.