This is the new us. We're now friends nothing more. He helps me sending out cv's to get Christmas jobs, and I'm helping out with...well, nothing really... Looking gorgeous so he'll never forget me, I guess. Ha ha ha.
Jokes aside. We've decided to take it slow. He was so hurt by my drunken antics. He nearly cried trying to talk to me. I did remind him about what he did, and that I decided to give him a second chance, and he agreed. I felt really bad, but so did he. He said that he only said what he said as a reaction to what I'd done. And that he wants to be my friend. That he cares for me.
But I'm hurting still. I can't stand not touching him. But this is what we get for playing with fire. This is what we get for playing with our friendship. This is what we get for playing with our emotions. This is the aftertaste of letting passion run our lives.
I know he feels the same way. I know, though he hasn't told me with words. I can see it in his eyes. And I know we will probably fall into the same trap again. Until he leaves.
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I'm a single mum who has realised how weird it can get trying to get back into the dating scene after staying away from it such a long time.
Having moved back to a small northern Swedish town from London has been a bit of an adventure as well.
But luckily I have my friends, both old and new, who keeps my head above water and feet firmly on the ground. And who don't seem to mind that I sometimes tend to get slightly neurotic....
Having moved back to a small northern Swedish town from London has been a bit of an adventure as well.
But luckily I have my friends, both old and new, who keeps my head above water and feet firmly on the ground. And who don't seem to mind that I sometimes tend to get slightly neurotic....
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4 comments:
Be Positive. Your last line saying it will be like this till he leaves- is negative. If you put out negative thoughts , negative things happen. Believe in yourself and in your friendship. Be positive, think positive and act positive. If what your doing isnt getting you the results you want trying something new wont hurt. Just my thoughts
He's looking for work abroad, so I'm just waiting for that. He's told me several times that the one person he'll miss when he goes is me. I'm holding on to those words.
I know he cares for me. But to what extent? I'm trying to believe in our relationship as friends. I do.
And I always appreciate your thoughts, Confessions!!! =)
Sometimes people are in ours lives for reason. Sometimes its for awhile, sometimes its not. I was watching a film with the kids at the weekend and in it something was said that struck me. I'm not religous or about to turn religous but what was said was...when someone prays for patiance, they are not given patiance but the chance to be patiant. ....So my translation to my life would be whne i ask for love im not given love but the chance to love. It might not be the love that will end in marriage and all that but the chance to love so that i know what i want and dont want when the big love comes along.
Now this is getting way too deep for me as its early here and im not even dressed and i got to get to work...catch you very soon.
I do think he's in my life for a reason. The reason being that I needed to wake up again and see that there's love out there somewhere for me. He woke me up after 2 years of not thinking that I want or need someone else in my life.
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