Where Did You Sleep Last Night

Mr.E and I have kept out IM-relationship going since the "deed" last week. We decided to have a poker evening with some friends and it ended with him staying over. Little F was at home, but she's used to me having friends staying, so there was nothing weird for her waking up seeing Mr. E eating breakfast with us. He's real good with kids. He kept Little F entertained while I made her breakfast and when I went to shower.

We'd also decided to go canooing that day, so I'd gotten one of my friends to babysit. He cycled over there with us and she told me as I was picking Little F afterwards that she thought he quite fancies me because of the way he was helping me with Little F. But to be honest, that's just his way. He's really really kind to people he cares about, not just me. It's not special to him to be so helpful, it's natural.

Anyways, it started raining quite bad unfortunately, so we went for a pizza instead and then visited a friend of ours that had a baby 6 months ago and who's a little bit alone because her boyfriend ( Mr.E's best friend) works so much. It was just a chilled afternoon. Getting to know eachother face to face. We actually agreed that IM'ing eachother is our only means of non alcoholic communicating, which makes it harder for us to speak to eachother outside cyberworld. Hence spending an afternoon together. Sober.

Mr.E also divulged that his neighbor had gotten a bit too serious even though he'd told her that he didn't want a serious relationship. So, I don't know how much they'll see eachother anymore, but YEEEY!!! It's not that I want him to myself....hahahaha Of Course It Is!!!

On a more serious note. I've come to realise that my feelings for Mr.E are a bit tangled up in feelings of being alone... I really like him as a friend, but I can't really be sure that those other feelings, the stronger ones that I feel for him aren't mainly there because he makes me feel less alone... If you get me?

Oh, I don't know. I just know I enjoy spending rainy afternoons with him, and that he enjoys my company too. He's not scared of Little F even though most guys run the opposite direction when they hear the mention of a child. And, the fact that he's about 6", absolutely stunning and I can literally see girls drool when they notice him doesn't make him less attractive in my eyes. I know, sounds shallow, but also very true.