All These Things That I Have Done

Well, what can I say? -If I had any doubt that Mr. E's cousin liked me, I am sure now. Ohmigod!

To start from the beginning... I had an old friend over for a few glasses of wine on Friday night. We sat on the balcony covered by the warm embrace of the sun when B called. I told him to come over if he wanted to, I mean, I see us as friends. I thought we were friends....

We all laughed, no need to tell you the boring and drunk things we said, that's not important any way. But i could feel that he was trying to come on to me. Ignoring that I walked him to the door as he was leaving, as I always do to lock the door behind him. He turned around and kissed me!!!Now I have to say, I didn't kiss him back. Although I've known that he likes me, I 've never thought of him that way...at all!

So I guess my question is; can you learn to find someone attractive if you know that this person is a great person? I mean, he is attractive in a way. Tall, lean and well mannered. And on top of that he's a brilliant friend... But I just don't feel that ..... thing when we're together. But is there a chance that I ever will?

I haven't had a boyfriend, or even a date for that matter since little F's dad and I separated, but should I give it a go? Thing is, I know him already, so what more is there to know...except for the attractiveness?!?!? And to top it off, he happens to be my secret loveinterest's cousin....hmpf!